John Gill

The Reader and the Writer

Judith visits her mother in the psychiatric ward the way other people visit graves – out of duty, out of guilt, out of a love that curdled long ago into something closer to endurance. Between the biscuits and the accusations, the sympathy she can’t use and the freedom she can’t quite claim, she carries a private hope that isn’t allowed to have a name.

Then the letters begin arriving. Unsigned. Correctly addressed. Written in a hand she doesn’t recognise – the unravelling confession of a man who has left everything behind for a life he can’t quite believe in. Judith tells herself she doesn’t know who he is.

She isn’t sure that’s true.

As her mother’s past surfaces in fragments too dark to have stayed buried this long, Judith is forced to reckon with what she’s capable of believing – about her family, about the writer, and about herself.

The Reader and the Writer is a quiet, unflinching novel about inheritance, self-deception, and the stories we tell ourselves to survive the ones we’re given, and about how much of any story is written by the person reading it. It doesn’t resolve neatly, and it isn’t meant to. A publisher once called it “too depressing for the mass market.” Readers who prefer literary fiction that sits with difficult questions rather than answering them may disagree.

For readers of introspective, character-driven fiction about family duty, mental illness, and the unreliable stories we tell about our own lives.

Content note: includes themes of suicide and self-harm, mental illness, and abuse.

Cover of The Reader and the Writer by John Gill: a torn sheet of cream paper against black, the title split by the tear

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Out November 11th

Signed copies are available from me directly – email john@johndavidgill.com to reserve one. Signed copies will be posted from late November.

John Gill, a black and white portrait, looking away from the camera

About

John Gill is a street and documentary photographer based in Castleford, West Yorkshire. He gives illustrated talks to camera clubs across the UK, mentors photographers one to one, and judges photography competitions.

He wrote The Reader and the Writer by hand, more than twenty years ago. No part of it is AI-generated. Like his photographs, it doesn’t set out to provide answers; it asks questions and leaves the interpretation to the reader.

Handwritten pages of the original manuscript of The Reader and the Writer in a pink folder, with a floppy disk labelled Backup B Disk 4
Part of the original handwritten manuscript.

For reading groups

A short discussion guide for book clubs: fourteen open questions, no answers. It contains spoilers, so it’s best read after the book.

Download the reading group guide (PDF, 2 pages)

Photography